Rider of the Wild Wind
11 January 2018 @ 09:00 am
So, I spent the past hour or so writing a new post. In a fraction of a second, I lost it. Just goes to show how unpracticed I am writing posts online and have forgotten one hard learned notion. ALWAYS copy your text before doing anything! That way, you're able to paste it back into your document, if you happen to lose it!

At the end of the post, though, I said that I'm a big believer that "everything happens for a reason". "There are no coincidences."

Guess I need to realize that's the case here, too, hmm?

So, what was up? Well, I was simply explaining... Making excuses, really, I guess, as to why it's been three months since I last updated, and it all boiled down to one thing.


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But, it was a reminder to me not to focus on the "end product", on what to create. Rather, focus on the Journey and who we will meet along the way.

Where will we go today?
Current Mood: contemplative
Rider of the Wild Wind
23 October 2017 @ 10:32 am
The weather has finally turned here in the Ozarks. Autumn is finally here! And with the change in temperatures, I've gotten a hankering for baking.

A bit about myself... I'm what you may call a "foodie". I love food! Most of all, I love nice, long, leisurely meals spent with loved ones, engaged in wonderful conversation over good food and drink.

Food is an important part of our family culture.

I have learned over the years, though, if not done "properly", it can have negative consequences on the health and shape of one's body, which is exactly where I found myself not too long ago.

Almost a month and a half ago, DH and I embarked on a new food journey (as I may have mentioned previously), a new way of eating.

One thing I've struggled with is my old "diet" mentality.

While it's my desire to gain a healthier, stronger and more pleasing shaped body, I know the "diet" mentality doesn't work for me. If it did, I would not be where I am today.

This is a new way of being.

It's something I have to remind myself of quite often.

Years of learning has taught me "that which I resist does persist." And while I am done having an unhealthy body, I know, if I'm to be successful, I need to focus on the positive aspects of what I desire while making changes in my way of eating and be-ing with food.

The Ketogenic way of eating is assisting me with this.

Now, this is not a post to convince you that "my way is the right way". It is, however, right for myself and DH. I love that food that tends to be demonized (ie butter, eggs, cream, etc) are among the staples.

One thing that I have been having difficulty with, though, is baked goods.

I love baked goods! But, traditionally, they're quite full of carbs (and not all 'good'/fiber filled carbs). The sugar filled carbs are the things we avoid with the Keto way of eating.

Fast forward to the past few days here in the Ozarks. With the turn in weather, my mind and heart have turned to... You got it! Baking!

Add to that, one of the members of a group to which I belong on Facebook mentioned blueberry scones. (LOVE!)

Blueberries... Not so bad on the carb scale where fruits are concerned. Doable. Just have to go easy on them. Scones, though... Could be dicey.

I did, however, find a recipe for Low Carb Blueberry Coconut Flour Scones this morning, and they came out looking and smelling so good!

I'm learning...

Sometimes, even when working to gain our "ideal" bodies, we have to take the time to be creative and find ways that we can "splurge" and enjoy the good things in life. That is what life is about. Not deprivation or suffering.

A life filled with those things - especially when they are self-inflicted - is not sustainable. Or, if it is, what's the point in it?

We are meant to be our own best friend. After all, we are the only person that is with us from the moment we take our first breath until our very last. We are the one person in this whole world that we should be able to count on.

A scone and tea (with cream) is just a little way that I can be kind to myself later today.

What will you do to be kind to yourself?
Rider of the Wild Wind
15 October 2017 @ 10:45 am

I came across this image from Conscious Reminder this morning not long after awakening and has played about in the back of my mind ever since.

In my experience, change can often be quite a challenging journey for one to traverse.

Take for instance my current journey "toward a more healthy me".

You like how I put a positive spin on that?

Originally, I typed "my current journey in weight loss", but isn't that exactly what Conscious Reminder is attempting to point out here?

A journey "toward a more healthy me" focuses more on 'building the new', rather than 'fighting the old', wouldn't you say?

There are some who might argue that it's all semantics. Over the years, though, I've become a strong believer that everything is energy and that, even, our thoughts and words hold energy of their own, which affect our surroundings our circumstances.

Fighting our current circumstances, the old, just denotes resistance, where focusing on that which we desire to build, the new, has more flow to it.

What about your own life? Can you see a place where you might be fighting the old? How might you create better flow, less resistance? If even by making a small change in your perception of the situation?
Rider of the Wild Wind
14 September 2017 @ 10:12 am
It's been 5 years now since we first moved to the Ozarks. It was a dream realized. A dream, which kept Dh and myself going through the seemingly long years which led up to his retirement from the Army.

It took 3 years after arriving for us to make it to a piece of land upon which we could realize the homesteading part of our grand scheme of things.

- Animal husbandry (primarily raising chickens)
- Gardening to sustain our family's needs
- Beekeeping

And so much more, it seemed.

The dream? At least to me, didn't turn out quite the way I had imagined it would.

Between necessary machinery constantly breaking down and a huge host of other factors, over time my spirit became weary with the fight.

I was just... "done", and my way of being, I guess you could say, felt lackluster. I started searching for things that would renew my soul.

It was about that time I started toying with the idea of taking a trip to "the beach".

As a teen and young adult in San Diego, that was always where I would head when I felt down or just in need of a recharge. So, why not head back when in need of a jump-start?

Only, after many long discussions with Dh, the idea of a vacation transitioned into plans for relocation.

Fast-forward a month or two, and we're taking our first steps into the heart of this leap of faith.

The original plan had extended a couple of years out. That was until my brother-in-law became involved. Now, it's an immediate future kind of thing with positions of employment involved!

It's become a bright, beautiful, highly expanded dream from what it had been originally, which dreams tend to be when the Universe takes the reins, but it still requires a transition. From one, old, faded dream to the new.

This morning, we said "goodbye" to our hens. One of which we raised from a pullet, and another we raised from a chick only a couple of days old.

As I did so, the realization that I'm just not cut out to be a farmer was - once again - hammered home.

I cried and am starting to cry even as I type this.

During my time here, I've had quite a few indicators that this just isn't the life for me, but that was a huge reminder that the direction we're now going in the "right" direction for us.

I'm excited to see what Spirit has in store for us, but am also reminding myself to be gentle with all of us through the transition.
Current Mood: melancholy