Rider of the Wild Wind
04 October 2017 @ 08:55 am
There are A LOT of changes occurring on this end. Some, I have instigated. Others, Spirit has (seemingly) guided me to. Regardless how they've been come by, it can be a little overwhelming at times.

Firstly, there have been BIG changes made in my care of this physical vessel.

There is no other way I can describe it. At least, not accurately. Because I Know I AM not this body. However, I AM responsible for this body. It is my way of getting around. If I do not take care of it, it is not going to get me far or for very much longer.

It all started with my Spirit's desire to dance.

I've watched my youngest, as well as the other kids and young adults, dancing for the past year or so, and every time I could feel a stirring within. My inner little girl begging to be let out, to be "allowed" to dance again. She was so insistent that I finally gave in, and since then, I've been inspired to do other things.

I've started working with dance-inspired exercise videos throughout the week (Lazy Dancer Tips) to strengthen my muscles and technique. That way, I can do better in my weekly classes.

I've also changed the way I'm fueling my body.

Dh and I started on a Ketogenic way of eating. That was 3 weeks ago, and I'm feeling better than I have in a LONG time.

I've lost 6 lbs. (216 lbs down from 222 lbs) Not a HUGE loss, but I'm starting to see my efforts reflected in my body.

They're not fit and trim, yet, but I'm starting to see my abs, again! And I can actually feel my hip bones when I lie down.

Not major progress to some, but fuel for momentum for me!

This morning, I was also guided to purchase Brene Brown's book Braving the Wilderness: The Quest for True Belonging and the Courage to Stand Alone.

I have had to pull myself away from it, and I'm only in a chapter or two.

It is really speaking to me. I can SO relate to so much of what she shares.

Since discovering my tendency toward being a chameleon to "fit in" and finding out who I am beyond that "shapeshifter", I, too, have felt alone, as though I just don't belong anywhere.

I have reached a point where I desire to connect, but all my efforts (beyond my family) seem to fall short. As a result, I have resigned myself to "being alone".

I just have to find a way and the courage to be "okay" with that. Hoping the books goes on to shine some light on that.