Rider of the Wild Wind
23 October 2017 @ 10:32 am
The weather has finally turned here in the Ozarks. Autumn is finally here! And with the change in temperatures, I've gotten a hankering for baking.

A bit about myself... I'm what you may call a "foodie". I love food! Most of all, I love nice, long, leisurely meals spent with loved ones, engaged in wonderful conversation over good food and drink.

Food is an important part of our family culture.

I have learned over the years, though, if not done "properly", it can have negative consequences on the health and shape of one's body, which is exactly where I found myself not too long ago.

Almost a month and a half ago, DH and I embarked on a new food journey (as I may have mentioned previously), a new way of eating.

One thing I've struggled with is my old "diet" mentality.

While it's my desire to gain a healthier, stronger and more pleasing shaped body, I know the "diet" mentality doesn't work for me. If it did, I would not be where I am today.

This is a new way of being.

It's something I have to remind myself of quite often.

Years of learning has taught me "that which I resist does persist." And while I am done having an unhealthy body, I know, if I'm to be successful, I need to focus on the positive aspects of what I desire while making changes in my way of eating and be-ing with food.

The Ketogenic way of eating is assisting me with this.

Now, this is not a post to convince you that "my way is the right way". It is, however, right for myself and DH. I love that food that tends to be demonized (ie butter, eggs, cream, etc) are among the staples.

One thing that I have been having difficulty with, though, is baked goods.

I love baked goods! But, traditionally, they're quite full of carbs (and not all 'good'/fiber filled carbs). The sugar filled carbs are the things we avoid with the Keto way of eating.

Fast forward to the past few days here in the Ozarks. With the turn in weather, my mind and heart have turned to... You got it! Baking!

Add to that, one of the members of a group to which I belong on Facebook mentioned blueberry scones. (LOVE!)

Blueberries... Not so bad on the carb scale where fruits are concerned. Doable. Just have to go easy on them. Scones, though... Could be dicey.

I did, however, find a recipe for Low Carb Blueberry Coconut Flour Scones this morning, and they came out looking and smelling so good!

I'm learning...

Sometimes, even when working to gain our "ideal" bodies, we have to take the time to be creative and find ways that we can "splurge" and enjoy the good things in life. That is what life is about. Not deprivation or suffering.

A life filled with those things - especially when they are self-inflicted - is not sustainable. Or, if it is, what's the point in it?

We are meant to be our own best friend. After all, we are the only person that is with us from the moment we take our first breath until our very last. We are the one person in this whole world that we should be able to count on.

A scone and tea (with cream) is just a little way that I can be kind to myself later today.

What will you do to be kind to yourself?
Rider of the Wild Wind
04 October 2017 @ 08:55 am
There are A LOT of changes occurring on this end. Some, I have instigated. Others, Spirit has (seemingly) guided me to. Regardless how they've been come by, it can be a little overwhelming at times.

Firstly, there have been BIG changes made in my care of this physical vessel.

There is no other way I can describe it. At least, not accurately. Because I Know I AM not this body. However, I AM responsible for this body. It is my way of getting around. If I do not take care of it, it is not going to get me far or for very much longer.

It all started with my Spirit's desire to dance.

I've watched my youngest, as well as the other kids and young adults, dancing for the past year or so, and every time I could feel a stirring within. My inner little girl begging to be let out, to be "allowed" to dance again. She was so insistent that I finally gave in, and since then, I've been inspired to do other things.

I've started working with dance-inspired exercise videos throughout the week (Lazy Dancer Tips) to strengthen my muscles and technique. That way, I can do better in my weekly classes.

I've also changed the way I'm fueling my body.

Dh and I started on a Ketogenic way of eating. That was 3 weeks ago, and I'm feeling better than I have in a LONG time.

I've lost 6 lbs. (216 lbs down from 222 lbs) Not a HUGE loss, but I'm starting to see my efforts reflected in my body.

They're not fit and trim, yet, but I'm starting to see my abs, again! And I can actually feel my hip bones when I lie down.

Not major progress to some, but fuel for momentum for me!

This morning, I was also guided to purchase Brene Brown's book Braving the Wilderness: The Quest for True Belonging and the Courage to Stand Alone.

I have had to pull myself away from it, and I'm only in a chapter or two.

It is really speaking to me. I can SO relate to so much of what she shares.

Since discovering my tendency toward being a chameleon to "fit in" and finding out who I am beyond that "shapeshifter", I, too, have felt alone, as though I just don't belong anywhere.

I have reached a point where I desire to connect, but all my efforts (beyond my family) seem to fall short. As a result, I have resigned myself to "being alone".

I just have to find a way and the courage to be "okay" with that. Hoping the books goes on to shine some light on that.
Rider of the Wild Wind
12 January 2017 @ 08:24 am

Time for a Bit of Self Care!

Today is a challenging day. On many levels. That is not to say it’s a ‘bad’ day. I find I’m just feeling a bit ‘off kilter’, low energy and thoroughly unmotivated.

I’m sure you’ve had days like that yourself, haven’t you?

‘And you’re here to give us the warm fuzzies, to help up find the joy and awesomeness of life? Lady, you’re failing miserably at the moment.’

I know. I know.

Just because a person ‘wakes up’, though, and begins living life in a more ‘conscious’ manner doesn’t mean life is suddenly and consistently filled with rainbows and roses.

I say this because I don’t want you – at some point – to say, “Hey! You lied to me. You said my life was going to get better. I don’t feel any better today than I did when we started this thing, this ‘process’ together.”

Because you very well could still have moments like that. Moments when you feel mired in the muck and mud. Heavy and so low on energy that it feels as though it takes every ounce of your strength and courage to take one more step forward.

See, everything I’m sharing and will share with you here is not meant to be a ‘quick fix’.

This is a process.

 At any given time, you will be able to know how you’re doing by the amount of time it takes you to ‘bounce back’ to ‘center’.

I’ve been on this path for years now, and I still have days when I’m ‘a hot mess’, but I always end up coming back to my center point, eventually. (Heck! Even my wonderful teacher and mentor, Rev. Diannia Baty, says she has days that challenge her as well.)

This process is not about molding life into our perception of ‘perfect’. It will never happen. Rather, it is perfect as it is. We just have to come around to realizing that.

For now, the best way I’ve found to ‘combat’ the gray days is to flow with it and apply as much Self Care as I am able and in whatever bits of downtime I am afforded.

What does that look like?

It’s found in the little things. Do things for yourself that titillate the senses.

  • Take a warm, cleansing bath (Add bubbles, some soft music, a glass of wine, or a book to kick it up a notch.)

  • Put on some cozy pajamas as soon as you’re able

  • Play some music (Every type of music has its own energy. Go for something that soothes the soul. I personally like Classical, New Age, or Jazz.)

  • Make your favorite comfort food for dinner (I’ve found that such days often call for breakfast food.)

  • Light some candles and/or incense (Nag Champa is a favorite of mine, and it’s said to raise the vibrational energy of a space, which is definitely helpful in this case!)

  • Pull up one of your favorite movies on Netflix

Basically, extreme self care (ESC) is whatever makes you feel good, pampered, and cared for. Because, if we don’t first care for ourselves, how in the heck are we supposed to properly for all the other people that we feel we need care for?

What if it doesn’t work?

Then keep doing it until it does.

It doesn’t always work immediately.

Perhaps, you’ve developed an ‘immunity’. Only, in this instance, it’s due to not applying it often enough.

Like many pharmaceuticals, it may just need to build up in our systems over time.

In that case, do it more!

And always remember, no matter what’s going on…

This too shall pass.

And given this point in time, you have a 100% rate for surviving whatever the Universe throws at you.

You can do so again!

This time, start by pressing the ESC button!