Rider of the Wild Wind
11 January 2018 @ 09:00 am
So, I spent the past hour or so writing a new post. In a fraction of a second, I lost it. Just goes to show how unpracticed I am writing posts online and have forgotten one hard learned notion. ALWAYS copy your text before doing anything! That way, you're able to paste it back into your document, if you happen to lose it!

At the end of the post, though, I said that I'm a big believer that "everything happens for a reason". "There are no coincidences."

Guess I need to realize that's the case here, too, hmm?

So, what was up? Well, I was simply explaining... Making excuses, really, I guess, as to why it's been three months since I last updated, and it all boiled down to one thing.


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But, it was a reminder to me not to focus on the "end product", on what to create. Rather, focus on the Journey and who we will meet along the way.

Where will we go today?
Current Mood: contemplative
Rider of the Wild Wind
23 October 2017 @ 10:32 am
The weather has finally turned here in the Ozarks. Autumn is finally here! And with the change in temperatures, I've gotten a hankering for baking.

A bit about myself... I'm what you may call a "foodie". I love food! Most of all, I love nice, long, leisurely meals spent with loved ones, engaged in wonderful conversation over good food and drink.

Food is an important part of our family culture.

I have learned over the years, though, if not done "properly", it can have negative consequences on the health and shape of one's body, which is exactly where I found myself not too long ago.

Almost a month and a half ago, DH and I embarked on a new food journey (as I may have mentioned previously), a new way of eating.

One thing I've struggled with is my old "diet" mentality.

While it's my desire to gain a healthier, stronger and more pleasing shaped body, I know the "diet" mentality doesn't work for me. If it did, I would not be where I am today.

This is a new way of being.

It's something I have to remind myself of quite often.

Years of learning has taught me "that which I resist does persist." And while I am done having an unhealthy body, I know, if I'm to be successful, I need to focus on the positive aspects of what I desire while making changes in my way of eating and be-ing with food.

The Ketogenic way of eating is assisting me with this.

Now, this is not a post to convince you that "my way is the right way". It is, however, right for myself and DH. I love that food that tends to be demonized (ie butter, eggs, cream, etc) are among the staples.

One thing that I have been having difficulty with, though, is baked goods.

I love baked goods! But, traditionally, they're quite full of carbs (and not all 'good'/fiber filled carbs). The sugar filled carbs are the things we avoid with the Keto way of eating.

Fast forward to the past few days here in the Ozarks. With the turn in weather, my mind and heart have turned to... You got it! Baking!

Add to that, one of the members of a group to which I belong on Facebook mentioned blueberry scones. (LOVE!)

Blueberries... Not so bad on the carb scale where fruits are concerned. Doable. Just have to go easy on them. Scones, though... Could be dicey.

I did, however, find a recipe for Low Carb Blueberry Coconut Flour Scones this morning, and they came out looking and smelling so good!

I'm learning...

Sometimes, even when working to gain our "ideal" bodies, we have to take the time to be creative and find ways that we can "splurge" and enjoy the good things in life. That is what life is about. Not deprivation or suffering.

A life filled with those things - especially when they are self-inflicted - is not sustainable. Or, if it is, what's the point in it?

We are meant to be our own best friend. After all, we are the only person that is with us from the moment we take our first breath until our very last. We are the one person in this whole world that we should be able to count on.

A scone and tea (with cream) is just a little way that I can be kind to myself later today.

What will you do to be kind to yourself?
Rider of the Wild Wind
19 October 2017 @ 08:33 am
Un-BecomingI awoke rather suddenly at 4 am this morning after having been in a deep sleep. It was then that a notion that popped into my mind, upon which I proceeded to muse.


When I first consciously embarked on my own spiritual journey, I received the idea that I had some great Purpose I needed to fulfill in this lifetime. Needless to say, Ego was quite thrilled by the notion and set out to discover what it was. At the time, though, I have to admit that there was a part of me that desired to figure it out, "get it done and go".

I wasn't happy. Not really. I felt so unfulfilled having all that I had imagined I could desire as an almost 30-something. Still, happiness. True happiness seemed to elude me, and - at that point in time - I wasn't quite certain how it was going to get any better than it was.

It did, though. In time I had learned that happiness does not reside outside myself, that no one else was responsible for my happiness or even could make me happy. But, that's a musing for another time.


A couple of years ago (while still searching for my Purpose), I finally received the message from Spirit that "Purpose is in the living." It was an idea that definitely caused me to stop and take notice. Something to ponder heavily upon.

Purpose is in the living?

You mean I don't have to accomplish anything??

I'd been so busy trying to discover what it is that I'm supposed to do. It never even occurred to me that life itself, the actual act of living was my "great Purpose". The situations, the actions, the people. Within those, the Purpose lay.

Even then, though, I believe I was missing the point. Because, of course, Spirit - at least in my experience - wouldn't give me all the pieces to the puzzle at the same time. That would kill the thrill of discovery, right?

Which brings me to this week...

By following a series of "breadcrumbs"*, I believe I came to better understand this whole notion of "Purpose". At least as it relates to me at this point in time and on this leg of my own Journey.

Life isn't meant to be struggled through. The Universe doesn't exist for the purpose of our suffering.

Granted, each of our spirits has a reason, or even multiple reasons for being here and at this point in time. Mine? I've finally realized that I'm here to enjoy life, to discover and live in my own strength and personal power.

I'm here to Be-come all and anything I desire, all that I can imagine myself to BE.

Becoming is my Purpose, and it IS in the living of this life I have been gifted.

Where do I go from here after discovering this tidbit of knowledge? Anywhere I desire! The sky isn't even my limit, and my oyster is oh-so-much bigger than this world.

Where I'll end up is anyone's guess!

* How I lovingly refer to those "signs" that Spirit/God/Goddess/the Universe gifts us with to show us the way to our next great adventure or epiphany.
Rider of the Wild Wind
15 October 2017 @ 10:45 am

I came across this image from Conscious Reminder this morning not long after awakening and has played about in the back of my mind ever since.

In my experience, change can often be quite a challenging journey for one to traverse.

Take for instance my current journey "toward a more healthy me".

You like how I put a positive spin on that?

Originally, I typed "my current journey in weight loss", but isn't that exactly what Conscious Reminder is attempting to point out here?

A journey "toward a more healthy me" focuses more on 'building the new', rather than 'fighting the old', wouldn't you say?

There are some who might argue that it's all semantics. Over the years, though, I've become a strong believer that everything is energy and that, even, our thoughts and words hold energy of their own, which affect our surroundings our circumstances.

Fighting our current circumstances, the old, just denotes resistance, where focusing on that which we desire to build, the new, has more flow to it.

What about your own life? Can you see a place where you might be fighting the old? How might you create better flow, less resistance? If even by making a small change in your perception of the situation?
Rider of the Wild Wind
14 October 2017 @ 10:12 am
"When you die, only three things will remain of you, since you will abandon all material things on the threshold of the Otherworld; what you have taught to others, what you have created with your hands, and how much love you have spread. So learn more and more in order to teach wise, long-lasting values. Work more and more to leave the world things of great beauty. And love, love, love people around you for the light of love heals everything." ~ French Druid Triad - Francois Bourillon
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Rider of the Wild Wind
14 October 2017 @ 09:54 am

"The life I touch for good or ill will touch another life, and that in turn another, until who knows where the trembling stops or in what far place my touch will be felt." ~ Hippie Peace Freaks, Facebook

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Rider of the Wild Wind
04 October 2017 @ 08:55 am
There are A LOT of changes occurring on this end. Some, I have instigated. Others, Spirit has (seemingly) guided me to. Regardless how they've been come by, it can be a little overwhelming at times.

Firstly, there have been BIG changes made in my care of this physical vessel.

There is no other way I can describe it. At least, not accurately. Because I Know I AM not this body. However, I AM responsible for this body. It is my way of getting around. If I do not take care of it, it is not going to get me far or for very much longer.

It all started with my Spirit's desire to dance.

I've watched my youngest, as well as the other kids and young adults, dancing for the past year or so, and every time I could feel a stirring within. My inner little girl begging to be let out, to be "allowed" to dance again. She was so insistent that I finally gave in, and since then, I've been inspired to do other things.

I've started working with dance-inspired exercise videos throughout the week (Lazy Dancer Tips) to strengthen my muscles and technique. That way, I can do better in my weekly classes.

I've also changed the way I'm fueling my body.

Dh and I started on a Ketogenic way of eating. That was 3 weeks ago, and I'm feeling better than I have in a LONG time.

I've lost 6 lbs. (216 lbs down from 222 lbs) Not a HUGE loss, but I'm starting to see my efforts reflected in my body.

They're not fit and trim, yet, but I'm starting to see my abs, again! And I can actually feel my hip bones when I lie down.

Not major progress to some, but fuel for momentum for me!

This morning, I was also guided to purchase Brene Brown's book Braving the Wilderness: The Quest for True Belonging and the Courage to Stand Alone.

I have had to pull myself away from it, and I'm only in a chapter or two.

It is really speaking to me. I can SO relate to so much of what she shares.

Since discovering my tendency toward being a chameleon to "fit in" and finding out who I am beyond that "shapeshifter", I, too, have felt alone, as though I just don't belong anywhere.

I have reached a point where I desire to connect, but all my efforts (beyond my family) seem to fall short. As a result, I have resigned myself to "being alone".

I just have to find a way and the courage to be "okay" with that. Hoping the books goes on to shine some light on that.
Rider of the Wild Wind
Autumn BlessingsAutumn is upon us...

Well, apparently, Missouri is a little late in getting the memo. The temps have remained consistent with summer. It is supposed to cool back down tomorrow, though, and become more "autumny". (Thank all that is good!)

The picture to the left is one that I came across via a "friend" I follow on Facebook. Lisa Hutchison, LMHC. It conveys what occurs for me and has occurred for me for many, many autumns now. I just hadn't realized that's what I've done in such a clear manner until now.

Reflection and Transformation.

I have known since the beginning that 2017 is a '1 year'. A year of beginnings. It has not reflected that energy to me. That is, until recently.

Guess it's a late blooming energy in my life. Or maybe I'm just the late bloomer. lol Either way, it is beginning to "kick in". But will wait until late December to fully materialize.

As mentioned previously, my family is facing a transition, in the form of a move. This has been requiring us to go through and "purge" those things that no longer serve us. And, let me tell you, there has been A LOT of it! I've lost track of the number of trips we've made to the local charity thrift store to make donations.

But, I have realized that the "purging" doesn't end there.

I am undergoing something of a "reboot" of self, both physically and mentally.

To be honest, I'm not entirely certain how it's all going to play out.

Physically, I'm beginning to feel better than I have in quite a long time. But even that change isn't merely physical. I'm beginning to feel better about me. More motivated and optimistic, and in a way I've not felt in years, if not decades.

See, Dh and I have embarked on a ketogenic way of eating. Granted, it's only been 2 weeks now, but I'm feeling GOOD, if not still a little tired physically. I'm noticing changes in my weight and my body as well as a desire to move my body.

I've finally found a form of exercise that I enjoy, that I can easily convince my mind that "we're having FUN!".


It took me some time to get beyond the insecurities. Truth be told, they still come up at times. (ie visions of the dancing hippos in Disney's Fantasia) BUT, I'm not allowing them to deter me, and I'm having a great time with it! Not only at class each week, but in the videos that I work with throughout the week to strengthen my body.

Will I ever be a prima ballerina?

No. I probably won't ever make my way to being en pointe, but I'm enjoying the heck out of it! And am very much looking forward to being a part of the studio's production of The Nutcracker in December.

Reflection upon mySelf, purging of the thoughts and programming that no longer serve me, and transformation into who I AM authentically... That is what this autumn is all about. Now, more than ever.
Rider of the Wild Wind
14 September 2017 @ 10:12 am
It's been 5 years now since we first moved to the Ozarks. It was a dream realized. A dream, which kept Dh and myself going through the seemingly long years which led up to his retirement from the Army.

It took 3 years after arriving for us to make it to a piece of land upon which we could realize the homesteading part of our grand scheme of things.

- Animal husbandry (primarily raising chickens)
- Gardening to sustain our family's needs
- Beekeeping

And so much more, it seemed.

The dream? At least to me, didn't turn out quite the way I had imagined it would.

Between necessary machinery constantly breaking down and a huge host of other factors, over time my spirit became weary with the fight.

I was just... "done", and my way of being, I guess you could say, felt lackluster. I started searching for things that would renew my soul.

It was about that time I started toying with the idea of taking a trip to "the beach".

As a teen and young adult in San Diego, that was always where I would head when I felt down or just in need of a recharge. So, why not head back when in need of a jump-start?

Only, after many long discussions with Dh, the idea of a vacation transitioned into plans for relocation.

Fast-forward a month or two, and we're taking our first steps into the heart of this leap of faith.

The original plan had extended a couple of years out. That was until my brother-in-law became involved. Now, it's an immediate future kind of thing with positions of employment involved!

It's become a bright, beautiful, highly expanded dream from what it had been originally, which dreams tend to be when the Universe takes the reins, but it still requires a transition. From one, old, faded dream to the new.

This morning, we said "goodbye" to our hens. One of which we raised from a pullet, and another we raised from a chick only a couple of days old.

As I did so, the realization that I'm just not cut out to be a farmer was - once again - hammered home.

I cried and am starting to cry even as I type this.

During my time here, I've had quite a few indicators that this just isn't the life for me, but that was a huge reminder that the direction we're now going in the "right" direction for us.

I'm excited to see what Spirit has in store for us, but am also reminding myself to be gentle with all of us through the transition.
Current Mood: melancholy
Rider of the Wild Wind
12 January 2017 @ 08:24 am

Time for a Bit of Self Care!

Today is a challenging day. On many levels. That is not to say it’s a ‘bad’ day. I find I’m just feeling a bit ‘off kilter’, low energy and thoroughly unmotivated.

I’m sure you’ve had days like that yourself, haven’t you?

‘And you’re here to give us the warm fuzzies, to help up find the joy and awesomeness of life? Lady, you’re failing miserably at the moment.’

I know. I know.

Just because a person ‘wakes up’, though, and begins living life in a more ‘conscious’ manner doesn’t mean life is suddenly and consistently filled with rainbows and roses.

I say this because I don’t want you – at some point – to say, “Hey! You lied to me. You said my life was going to get better. I don’t feel any better today than I did when we started this thing, this ‘process’ together.”

Because you very well could still have moments like that. Moments when you feel mired in the muck and mud. Heavy and so low on energy that it feels as though it takes every ounce of your strength and courage to take one more step forward.

See, everything I’m sharing and will share with you here is not meant to be a ‘quick fix’.

This is a process.

 At any given time, you will be able to know how you’re doing by the amount of time it takes you to ‘bounce back’ to ‘center’.

I’ve been on this path for years now, and I still have days when I’m ‘a hot mess’, but I always end up coming back to my center point, eventually. (Heck! Even my wonderful teacher and mentor, Rev. Diannia Baty, says she has days that challenge her as well.)

This process is not about molding life into our perception of ‘perfect’. It will never happen. Rather, it is perfect as it is. We just have to come around to realizing that.

For now, the best way I’ve found to ‘combat’ the gray days is to flow with it and apply as much Self Care as I am able and in whatever bits of downtime I am afforded.

What does that look like?

It’s found in the little things. Do things for yourself that titillate the senses.

  • Take a warm, cleansing bath (Add bubbles, some soft music, a glass of wine, or a book to kick it up a notch.)

  • Put on some cozy pajamas as soon as you’re able

  • Play some music (Every type of music has its own energy. Go for something that soothes the soul. I personally like Classical, New Age, or Jazz.)

  • Make your favorite comfort food for dinner (I’ve found that such days often call for breakfast food.)

  • Light some candles and/or incense (Nag Champa is a favorite of mine, and it’s said to raise the vibrational energy of a space, which is definitely helpful in this case!)

  • Pull up one of your favorite movies on Netflix

Basically, extreme self care (ESC) is whatever makes you feel good, pampered, and cared for. Because, if we don’t first care for ourselves, how in the heck are we supposed to properly for all the other people that we feel we need care for?

What if it doesn’t work?

Then keep doing it until it does.

It doesn’t always work immediately.

Perhaps, you’ve developed an ‘immunity’. Only, in this instance, it’s due to not applying it often enough.

Like many pharmaceuticals, it may just need to build up in our systems over time.

In that case, do it more!

And always remember, no matter what’s going on…

This too shall pass.

And given this point in time, you have a 100% rate for surviving whatever the Universe throws at you.

You can do so again!

This time, start by pressing the ESC button!